Enough.

Today was the sort of day that can drive a momma crazy.  Things started off great.  I felt strong, felt focused, felt on track.  Then 10 am hit and things started to fall apart.  Not like an epic disaster type fall apart or anything, but rather a gradual unraveling of my confidence.  The kind of day where nothing too awful really happened, yet there is this nagging sense of being overwhelmed.  Yet, if someone were to ask me why I was feeling overwhelmed, I would really have no good answer.  Thus leaving me to conclude, that I am obviously the problem, not my children.
Despite today's nagging suspicions that I strongly lack the necessary qualities to adequately parent my children, much less get a firm grip on adult life, I persevered. All children made it into bed, fed, bathed and snuggled (with only one or two snarky comments from the peanut gallery- ME).
During bed time I read the boys their devotions from The Jesus Storybook Bible.  Tonight's story was, "Filled Full," the story of how Jesus fed 5,000 people with the little boys' five loaves of bread and two fishes.
The little boy shows the disciples his food...

"I have some," he said.  Jesus' friends laughed when they saw his little lunch. 'That's not nearly enough!' they said.  But they were wrong.  Jesus knew it didn't matter how much the little boy had.  

God would make it enough, more than enough." (Storybook Bible)

There, in that last line is the thing I want to always remember about today.  This ain't just a story about bread and fish peoples!  God will make ME enough, more than enough.  If He can feed five thousand with a little boys' lunch, how much more can I trust Him to provide me with what I need to finish this Mommyhood race strong?  

Typing this now, I am reminded of the words of Paul, "But he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me."  (2 Corinthians 12:9)  I feel like Paul may have written this verse just for mom's.  Well, at least for THIS mom.  Praising God today for His truth, His strength, His word and His power in my life, 'cause it sure isn't me who makes things happen, I can tell you that!