The space between.: A week flew by!

How in the world did almost one full week pass since I last posted??? In all fairness, I did try and post a video on Monday, but I couldn't get it to link and I haven't remembered to have Cutter take a look at it.

I spent a better part of last week looking for schools for the boys. The public school system here is well known for being awful and private school here is now well known by me for being insanely expensive, especially the preschool programs. If I was working, we could afford it. But I just don't want Hadley in daycare. So, we will try the public Kindergarten for Hayden, I think I found something for Hudson a couple days a week and see how it goes. If I have to home-school, I have to home-school. Heaven help us all.

Last Saturday, Hayden attended his first football camp run by Hawaii University D1 football coaching staff, over 200 kinds were there. Grandma, Daddy and Hudson went with to watch. Hayden told me later, "It was the greatest day." Grandma says he has quite a tackle, and grandma should definitely know these things. Hayden really didn't want to go at first, but I am so glad he did. It gave him an idea of what flag football is going to be like next month, as him and Hudson are signed up to play.
http://hawaiiathletics.com/coaches.aspx?path=football&

On Sunday we went to church. We got lost (the highway system here is CRAZY!). We thought we were going to be late... ended up being 45 minutes early. I read their website wrong. They had a guest speaker who was good, so we will try it again next Sunday to check out the head pastor.
http://www.calvarychapelofhonolulu.com/

Monday was day of the dogs. They arrived safe and sound. Both were a tad shell shocked when they arrived and it took about a day for them to feel get back to their normal energetic selves. We, especially Hudson, are excited to have them back. It feels like we are a complete family again.

On Tuesday we took the boys the the Pearlridge Mall to see a butterfly exhibit. The mall is so big it has a monorail to get from one side of it to the other! Boys loved that. Jayme, it has a Macy's so you could totally live her! http://www.pearlridgeonline.com/

Today is Wednesday and grandma just pointed out that she is leaving in one week. This makes me cry inside. It is funny how emotions work. One day I can feel strong and great and even happy to be here... and then the next, like yesterday, I feel like this was a huge mistake and not worth all the work. I know these feelings will eventually even out but I can honestly say I am not looking forward to the horror that will be losing my mom to the mainland. We just don't even talk about that.

However, Seth and I had a good talk yesterday about anxiety and bringing it under the submission of Jesus. He shared this devotion with me, I think I am going to hang it on my fridge, and on my bathroom mirror, and above my bed, and on my dashboard, well you get the picture:

Jesus Calling 2013-6-10

Rest in Me, My child . Give your mind a break from planning to anticipate what will happen. Pray continually, asking My Spirit to take charge of the details of this day. Remember that you are on a journey with Me. When you try to peer into the future and plan for every possibility, you ignore your constant Companion who sustains you moment by moment. As you gaze anxiously into the distance, you don’t even feel the strong grip of My hand holding yours. How foolish you are, My child!

Remembrance of Me is a daily discipline. Never lose sight of My presence with you. This will keep you resting in Me all day, every day.

1 Thessalonians 5:17; Psalm 62:5

God used a conversation with my little brother to bring me comfort and remind me of the strong grip of my Savior. He holds me. He holds my children. He holds my husband. He even holds my dogs. No matter the degree of intensity in my current emotion of the day, He is there. I can choose to keep my eyes on Him, or on how I happen to feel. I choose Him. Pray for me family. That hope in Jesus replaces discouragement and that joy in Salvation replaces frustration and bitterness.